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April 11, and 23 of 1997
Born in California on April 11, 1997. This is a pretty picture of you 2 weeks old.   


           
 
April 11 1998 You'r very first birthday
This picture was taken the day you turned one. I'm sad we couldnt get you to smile and mommie looked so tired. However I have this picture on here, you (new) baby book, your photo album/scrapbook, and at the house and in my purse. 

                    
 
May 21 1998
Here is a picture of you taking your first run 8 days after you learned how to walk! 


       I love you so much more than this.
 
Family photograph October 18 1999 (2 1/2 years old)
This picture was taken shortly after mommie tried cutting you'r hair,..... Obviously I needed some practice : ) I remember going to take this one and that day. 



     
 
April 11 2000 Destiny's third birthday
This picture was taken at Chuck-E-Cheese. We went there with grandma Marilyn, Henry, Lu-lu, Li-li, cousin Gloria, Daddy and mommie. You had fun opening your gifts. One in particular was a lil Tommy sport red/black cheerleader dress that you wore until you were six and daddy wouldnt let you no more 'cuz you'r underwear showed. 

            
 
Daddy's 22 nd birthday November 19 2000
You were all excited becuase you thought it was wierd that grown-ups had birthdays too. 

                       
 
April 11 2001 Destiny's fourth birthday.
Destiny you were so beautiful and you still behaved like a normal child instead of snotty. You cared about others and were starting to realize all the bad stuff going on in the world around you. At this age if I coulnt buy you something you wanted you would say " When you get your big check you will buy it, right mommie"? also you would say stuff like " At least you love me and we got a house, right mommie?, other kids mommies hit them or don't love them." You were observing your friends, peers , and other lives. I loved you so much for your understanding. We grew even closer, more than a mother and daughter. You were so understanding and generous it made me so happy just to hug you. In alot of ways you were there for me like a mother. You sensed when I was stressed or sad and you would hug me and tell me you loved me or it was okay. Man I wish you were here. You would fall in love with your baby sister(you already were) she reminds me of you sometimes when you were that age. I wish there was a way for you to read this, I need you and you are not here and it hurts so bad. Only you would understand me. I love you always mommie. 

         
 
You acting silly at four and a half years old at tia Veronica's house
This was you personality. Cute, happy, silly, goofy, and with your fake little luagh and "whatever" with Veronica it was cute.
 

You used to get so mad at your cousins and growl at them!!! Why? becuase they called you skinny bones you hated that!  : )

Everybody misses you. There are alot of children around here that are messed up. If you are in Heaven, help them. They can't sleep, some are scared of smoke, others have an obsession with death, help them. Help me too, I am tired of feeling dissillusioned, sad, angry, lonely, and mad.I don't know what to do any more I know I should accept it and move on, but I can't ! If you are in Heaven shine down on mommie and give me a sign you still love me and see me, hear me, whatever. I love you forever, mommie 
                                    


 
 
The last day you were four years old
Destiny this was a special day for us. To me this day symbolized leaving toddlerhood and becoming a little girl instead of my little baby. However you always stayed, were, and will be my baby no matter what. I was a little emotional and happy to see how beautiful you were growing up to be. You were just happy to be dressed up and going to school looking pretty. I remember you alot at this age. perhaps because you were more assertive and independant, or just becuase we litterally spend almost all of our days together. (at Headstart) Thanks to Mrs. Maria M. I have this picture she found it at her house.
 
April 11 2002 Destiny's fifth birthday
Destiny you had a great BIG birthday party this year! You were into Barbie, and you got your wish.So many people loved you. You had so much love that my friend Lisa who has 4 kids let mommie borrow 70.00 dollars for you to have a bigger party, cake, and better party at Chuck-E-Cheese. Now that was very nice of her. Alot of people came. Grandma Marilyn and Henry, tia Veronica and Family, friends from my job, Sancia, tia Brenda, Lu-lu, Li-Li, Sal, and Johanna, Sally, Jay, and Jake, Ms. Laura grama,Lisa & kids, also Vikki and her kids. Grandma and Henry bought pizza for your party, you two barbies, and an outfit, tia Veronica a barbie, barbie stuff,and a beautiful summer dark blue and light blue dress!, tia Maria bought you a doll and socks, Vikki bought you a barbie beach towel, a pizza hut barbie restaurant, two barbies and clothes! Sally and Jay brought you a barbie and two out fits, Sancia  a baby, barbie and two outfits, Lisa two dolls a barbie + the 70. dollars for the party. Luara bought you a barbie, spongebob candy, crayons, and barbie stuff. Tia Brenda baught you a barbie, and your own little purse. You had so much fun playing and opening your gifts. Everyone laughed becuase you were so happy with all of your gifts.
 
Memories of 6 th b-day and Easter 2003. Right after your sixth birthday.
I don't have any pictures of your sixth b-day but you had alot of fun. You had your first pinata! Everyone came over, mommie was running late(just like at our wedding party) and there were so many people at the house. You were a little sad becuase this was your first year having a b-day w/out your Gradma Marilyn, but you ended up enjoyin your self. Abril was there, Raquels 5 kids(your cousins)Tae, Ki-ki, Adaceli, D'Angelo, and La'Tasja. Your friends from upstairs and Danny and Alex. We had a cookout, fried chicken and cake. Tia Veronica, Fabian, and Quina Desiree were running late. You got a lot of gifts this year. You were into everything. Spongebob mostly. You loved cat's were obsessed with them(didnt have one) You took alot of pictures and you were dressed like a princess with gloves(white lace) purse and hair done and all. I wish I had pic's. These were the Easter baskets we got for you and your brother through marraige, Alex. You guys loved them and had a lot of fun on Easter together.
 
Easter/7 th birthday/all alone
I made you guys home made Easter baskets this year. They had candy, toys, pencils, and little prizes. You loved them. We told you we would celebrate your 7 th b-day next Saturday on April 17 that way you could celebrate Easter and your b-day seperatly. Then you went to your friend Yesenia's house Monday and Tuesday for some fun. You palyed, sang, went to the movies, toy r us, and swimming in and indoor pool. Thankfully they recorded you and took pictures. When you came back you guys were dressed as little princesses in dress up clothes. You of course in your favorute color pink. YOU GUYS DROVE NE CRAZY! : ) you had on the "clappy shoes" as you called them and were walking around making noise until I yelled to take them off! : ) I wish I had let you keep them on. That was Tuesday 4-13-04. On Thursday mommie fell asleep with you in her arms, with the candles on......The rest is History. I ran to go call your daddy outside and you tried to get out. We couldnt find you in all the smoke we tried and tried untill the people finally held mommie back and wouldnt let me go back in no more. It was horrible knowing you were in there somewher and no one could find you. The firemen and autopsy say that you died due to the smoke inhalation. They say it was probably very quick and you didnt suffer. I don't believe them. Granted it is better then the other way but not being able to breathe.... I was in there looking for you I KNOW how it felt! All of that dark,dark,thick smoke. The dryness of your body as the smoke starts dehydrating you, the thick, humid heat that engulfs the whole house, the way your throat starts burning and itching even when you hold your breathe. The scariness, and sense of being lost in your own house cuz you cant see. So you see it's not as "better" as they think. You were probably scared, thinking I left you, and probably gasping for air! I CAN"T TAKE IT KNOWING THIS! In alot of ways it probably would have been better for me to not have known what it felt like in there. But I do. I never even got to say goodbye to you. Nobody wanted me to hold you one last time and say goodbye. I wish I could have held you and screamed I'm sorry. I wish we never had lit those candles. I wish you hadnt left me all alone. Nobody wanted me to see you though. They said 'that' wasn't you and I should remember you as you were. The autopsy and fire report had stated that there was "heat damage" to your body. I guess they thought they were protecting me. The problem is I am a visual reader. I pretty much visualized how you looked anyway. I wish I could have at least said bye. I would probably still would hurt just as bad, maybe worse, but at least I would have known it wasnt a lie. Sometimes it feels like its not even true, I never even got to see you. The last  thing I remeber is you in arms sleeping, and it isnt fair. You probably were so confused too, waking up thinking we left you! I HATE THIS! I love you and miss and I wish you would come back to me.
 
2004
Passed away on April 15, 2004 at the age of 7 years and 4 days. All we have left now and our memories.
 
Today 1-26-05-----I found a quote that applies.
" For all sad words of tounge and pen, the saddest are these,.....IT MIGHT HAVE BEEN" John Greenleaf Whittier "Maude Miller"

This is what might have been for me, yet isn't so I just have a computer enhanced image. I miss all of our hopes and dreams, I miss her.
 
February 14 th 2005
Destiny here is a Valentine's ad for you today, you always liked going to school on Valentine's Day. I love you baby.
 
April 11 2005 ( would have been your eigth birthday )
Today is our very first birthday without you and it is nearing the day you passed away. I can't get over it, I want to touch you and hold you and to know I never will breaks me. Today you would have been eight and I wish last year on this day I would have known what was going to happen. We would have never turned on those candles and none of this would have ever happened. However hoping and wishing is for fools. I will never hear your voice again or see your pretty smile and it hurts so bad......
 
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